I remembered the significant similarities that you tried so hard to portray, or shall I say I've been monitoring for months till I concluded that it was enough? Originality has a mind of its own and the latter is easily understood, but generally people's interests or topics doesn't fall in the same basket ALL the time. Sadly, people with no life probably do. Or should I assume somebody is trying to prove something?
So here's the thing, am not in much favour to brag about what I am or really am yadadada (like you always do) cause I've got better things to think about than talking to someone as cheap as her speeches - Personally, I'm open to anything, everything. Even if you were someone from the past, it doesn't bug me like some girls do (being insecure).
Unfortunately & sadly, a really dumbass woman like you is unable to comprehend such intentions.
Here's
the thing; it's relatively simple to understand. I do not reject pasts;
even though you were someone from His past. Fact is I'm quite delighted
to know that we don't hold no grudges, and that the past remains the
way it is. Instead, we should embrace it beautifully - like how I did to
yours. Well, I was not given any appreciation (not that I am expecting
any) but you certainly have no courtesy and humility at all.
I do not portray being a nice human being, and I'm
not, I admit that. I'm just human enough to feel jealous too at times (note: I'm upfront about it too).
Inviting you to see over the new shared life was a terrible mistake
because not only did you keep reminiscing about it (as if I'm invisible enough to be ignorant),
you also kept implying that you wanted what I had in life like its never content enough in your new one (damn thick-skinned). Like I've
mentioned earlier, similarities don't happen too frequently and although
it does SOMETIMES, it was a bit too much for me to handle your nudges.
You seem to have some internal issues towards handling yourself as a
woman & as a past.
Only we know who's polite enough to
stand up, say straight things, and be honest with ourselves. My words
have always been written out of honesty and clarity, if you read carefully my entries cause firstly, I do not know
how to pretend in a dreamy imaginary world like you do and secondly, I don't like pretense (well I don't know about you).
If you felt that my position
as a replacement to yours was a hazard, and a disease to your mind
(since you keep constantly feeling that you must have what I have, from
your similar nudges) - you should have been upfront about it.
But
knowing how cowardly you really are, hiding behind the keyboard you have
chosen to stuck yourself with, I realised that it was no point arguing
with an insecure idiot like you.
I'm not much of a successor to criticise the profession
(if you have one) or the things you do in life, because Allah is fair. We can say a million and one things, portray that we're great, modest and all but deep down, only you know your darkest secrets. I've always believed that you are what you read and your influence on my part is too negatively insane I cannot understand whats your intentions towards the fresh new friendship I've given you.
I'm a woman, could be a friend to you, but too bad, it was my mistake for giving humankind a chance. I shall remember always, that some people are just not worth it.
